Who Doesn't?

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I have trauma. 

Who doesn't? 

I have trauma from physical abuse when I was 17 years old. 

I have trauma from sexual assault when I was 20 years old.

I mentioned before that this 'blog' is like an open diary for me. Why don't I treat it like one and spill out my trauma?

 I'm not shy in speaking of it. Nobody should be. 

So why shouldn't I share it with the, maybe, one or two people who may ever come across this?

 And if it reaches more one day, I hold hope that it resonates with people and they know not to shy away from their trauma and that it encourages them to speak freely.

Here is to my next entry, in diary form. ❤

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